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When DEATH seems like a DEMON!

2009-04-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

GAWDDDD bless me... yesh! i've been going through miserable moments; stuck,sad, emotionally down! BUT why? WHY ME?? Especially when i have got no bloody guts to digest this issue!

Alright i understand the cycle of life and that all things that exist will be turned into dust one day or another.

Unfortunately my brain is weak, clueless- cant believe the impulses sent through my dendrites! I cant accept the fact that one has to die, especially when "IT" is still young! Perhaps i am just overeacting like Juana from the Pearl, when she said that the Pearl was evil. I dont really care! In fact it's the least that i care about at this insane moment when truth is indeed deceiving!

Imagine being in my shoes- "IT" may die, "IT" is counting its days... The demon is eating "IT"!

God are you this cruel? Truth hurts but when you've got no other choice but to accept the fact that life has to go on even without "IT". Yessss, life has to go on! The world will not stop evolving,the sun will rise and set as time flies, the daffodills will still bloom with their uttermost beauty that'll not only capture the eye of the beholder but also melt their heart. Life's like a flower, it's beautiful , colourful, pretty but sadly it is temporary. Life wilts with time.Time waits for no men!

It's a curse, when your time has come, u've got to go! You cant say no,no saying no! Everyone has got their own problems, no doubt! BUT what's the meaning of life when it is EMPTY, hollow,dry, unshared, filled with envy and problems.... HELP!

LEARN TO ACCEPT THE PAIN by Gauthama Buddha

null misstress

--RaTe My LiFe--

2009-03-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

This Is My Life, Rated
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Spirit:	7.9
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Love:	1.5
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eaRTH HOur 60!

2009-03-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

Alright people, i know that it has been quite some time since i've blogged! Believe me when i signed in, i was in lala-land-LOST!

Alright so yes as I you'll know i will be sitting for spm at the end of this year and gawrshhh my life depends on it!! *pardon me*

So i cannot really feed my site with my writings and as such!

BUT, there's this one event that drew my attention. I simply couldnt resist but to blog about it! yeshhh; EARTH HOUR 60!

Trust me, when i first saw the group in facebook i thought it was a scam! I mean not even in my wildest dream would have i imagined that people would actually come up with such amazing ideas to unite all of us- the children of EARTH, to show our respect, love and care for her (mother earth).

The best part of it is that we all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations. When i say we i mean US-all of us! you,you, youh and definitely youh who's reading this!

So the first thing i asked myself was what is the relativity between electricity and global warming? I mean how on Earth can we save her from global warming just by turning off the lights? And only for an hour? can this work? So having the curiosity of a two year old, i started surfing the net and hoping what if just maybe I could find for a solution; an answer for all these questions jumbled up in my brains.... and yes..... indeed... look what i found!

source:http://www.voteearth2009.org/why/

This year, Earth Hour has been transformed into the world’s first global election, between Earth and global warming. For the first time in history, people of all ages, nationalities, race and background have the opportunity to use their light switch as their vote – Switching off your lights is a vote for Earth, or leaving them on is a vote for global warming. WWF are urging the world to VOTE EARTH and reach the target of 1 billion votes, which will be presented to world leaders at the Global Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen 2009. This meeting will determine official government policies to take action against global warming, which will replace the Kyoto Protocol. It is the chance for the people of the world to make their voice heard!

earth hour 2009

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zd1BsNvEXqo

*end of facts*

WOW! 1 billion? last year about 50million people participated in this event; and oh no i had no idea about it. But guess what this year; yes this year-2009, i am soo going to a part of this effort!

yes people who's going to save HER if it's not for us? Arent we her chidren? We are responsible for every single shit that we have caused her and yes we should be responsible to make things better alright not better but at least ease the problems little by little.

So what we should do?

easy...!!!

just put out those lightson the 28th of march from 8.30pm-9.30pm, light up a candle and uhmmm why not invite friends over to yourhouse and hide a bunch of stuff all over your house. then for all of earth hour, they have to find as many things on a list that they can. At the end of the hour, whoever has found the most stuff gets like a prize or somethingg!! haha =]

you know what that is like exactly what i will be doing! haha...

so buddies; you're all invited to my house on he 28th of March... haha.... WE shall partayyyy!! and candles and drinks are provided :D

VOTE FOR CHANGE!

off the lights and partayyy an hour! *may be extended if you want to*

♥-nullmistress-♥

- toTAL inTERnal REFlectION-

2008-10-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

Yes... it's official, i am a nerd,...( and yeah it took me this long to say that... like durhh!!) well actually, i am not a bookworm, but i wonder why others say that..... seriously...!!! BUt neither can i deny the love and passion i have for books....( anything except for textbooks....!!!) But that doesnt mean that i don't read textbooks, but textbooks are just uncomparably boring than all the other books... I do realize the fact that our Malaysian textbooks are complete and brief ( except for biology book..) but there are just too many facts, i mean after all it's textbook, what can a fun-seeking 16 year old possibly find in there???

but studying just tires me...i dunno why. it feels like i have forgotten how to study.... seriously... i am not the person i used to be! not the person who loves her textbooks as much as i love my computer and pencil case ( despite the fact that my friends thinks that my pencil case is a junkyard)..... i have no idea what is up with me....My trouble is I analyze life instead of living it. I just don't like the new me.
HELPPPPPPPPPPP!!!

* jAlAn - JaLaN rAYe *

2008-10-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

Thank gawwdd... i finally had the time to sit down and update my blog.... Six blogless days.... haizzzz.... it certainly was tempting but i have to say that i have been busy... Too many things to be done both at home and in school... and being me, ahemmm ahemmm* lol... of course i am busy!

So yeah, the purpose for me to give a lil exercise to my fingers today is actually to share with everyone about my experience today... Basically it was a fine day, and my conscious nerves were triggered by my bestie bindhu early in the morning... yeah, what a bug!! i was drooling over him... hahaha... and there i was lying down on my bed perfectly with my comforter to keep me warm, DREAMING as though i was dancing with my prince charming in the crystal carved castle.... toot.. toot..., my outdated celly rang... OUCH... i still can't face the fact that i had to snap out of my so called " perfect" dream.... sigh* all thanks to bindhu.... and yeshhh i had to press that bloody green button.... it was about 7 in the morning... she told me that she'll come and pick me up at about 8.30am.... oooooooooooohhhhh shit... i promised to join the galz to visit our malay frenz' houses..... yeah then i remembered.... as soon as she hung up, i tried to push myself up to wake up and saw nobody at home. the air was still... My mum probably drove my sister to school.... and hooorayyy, it was a holiday for me.... my heart leapt sky high... hahaha... but yet i had to wake up... then i thought that i should set an alarm, and since i'll only need about half an hour to get ready, i still had the chance to snooze lazily..... until my mum opened the windows... those killer sunlight shone directly onto my face!!!!

ahhhhhhh, i rubbed my eyes and started to gain consciousness.... my body was so tired that it pushed me back to my pillows. i shrugged, but suddenly shaera's face flashed in my mind... ohh noo... i woke up as though the lightning struck me thrice.... woooo.... so yeah, basic ruotines.... washed up, got into sum good clothes, and pushed myself to the living room... mum wanted me to have breakfast, but i told her that i wanted to keep my stomach all empty so that i could try all the cookies and biscuits specially made for raya... hmmmm ( i love em'.... winks*)

Then i heard a honk outside of my house, it was bindhu's mum with da galz, prem and bindhu.... just when i was looking for my sandals, her mum got out of the car and walked to my house, she was grumbling and complaining about the idea of having exams during diwali festival, i could see from the look that she had on the face that she was rather unhappy about the exam time table.... but oh well, then she expressed her point of views to my mum and owh yeah, you know the next thing that happens when our mumz meet each other.... it is BAD!!!! seriously....

the car stopped; shaera's house..... the 1st stop! her house resembled more of the traditional and cultural sorta feel, i sensed it when i entered he house... trust me, i have known this girl since i was 6 years old and good gawwdd... i have never been to her house before, what a waste of childhood and half of my secondary life aite? i simply loved the warm welcome she gave us, after all, we've all known each other for a very long time...!!!!! and i am pretty sure you can guess what happened next aite??? well yesss..... of course, us girls started chit-chatting.... one of the many things that we're superb at!!! winks*

owh yeah, then the 8 other girls arrived..... all of a sudden there still air was filled with excitement and yeahhhhh NOISE!!! time for partaayyy.... !!! the food was served and yeah there were a conglomeration of various items, and chocolates as appetizers??? can u believe that, i was in pure heaven!!!! lol, though i was totally in control as in i tried my very best to stay away from the chocolates... but it was just too tempting, so yeah i took a few of em'... lol... the food was awesome, and after only a million snaps, we were all ready to walk to the next house... Thasha's house.... yeah it was rather far from shaera's house but yah know, i took "a few " chocolates, and that pretty much made me feel as though i had the energy to hike mount everest.. lol.... when we reached there, it felt like i was the happiest person on earth... i was still alive!!! not that i don't walk much ok, at least i am better than bindhu..I still remember the last time i walked with her from the 7 eleven to my house, an average distance of 2 km.... not very far ok!

i have walked further distance before.... hahahaha....

So yeah, we ate, saw some disco lights ( groovy...!!!) , ate some more, took more pictures, ate some more(lol...!!!), spoke about lotsa stuff, like ermmmm.....and then we were all set to go to the next pit stop (lol...) , hazimah's house, we were supposed to walk there, but tnk god that thasha's dad and imah's dad offered to drive us there.....

yeah, basically there were food!!!! yeshhh, the thing that brings us all the malaysian together and the thing that i have a lot of passion for... lol...(kidding...)

The food was seriously good, yeshhh seriously, too bad u weren't there to try it out... hahahax...

but unfortunately my journey with the girls had to end, what a pity... sob.. sob... all because i had tuition to attend to... but there is one more thing that i forgot to mention about, yah knw, the best part of da jalan raye.... ahahahahah.. guess what????

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

DUIT RAYA... hahahahah

thnks galz.... appreciate it... hahahha... but yeah another thing is that i learned that all of us had a lot in common and that we were all tied by the golden ribbon called friendship... love you'll so much girls.....mwaaahhhxx....

Next, the day was still early you know, so sit back cuz i have more stories to tell....hahahaahaha all the walking simply squeezed my sweat glands till i could fill up a pail with em'... hahahaha..... it was a hot day after all....

so i just had to take a shower before i go to tuition... i dont want to be called the girl who stinks in tuition you know... it could just spoil my reputation and pride within split seconds..... so i took a shower, very quickly and rushed to tuition, the road was not that busy like the way it is always... so mum drove me there very fast, without breaking any traffic laws of course... !!!!so it was chemistry class... my favourite subject, but today i was a little sleepy, my eye lids were too heavy... good thing i sat in front today.... it was a four-hour class.... usually i'll take note of whatever she says, even if it is not important, but today my brain was numb!! luckily i could understand whatever that she thought, it was an extra class after all, what a waste would it be if i couldn't concentrate???

But there's just something that this particular teacher, Ms. Linda, possess.... sorta like a magnet that attracts all your attention, and my brain was just willing to listen to whatever she had to teach.... i simply adore her, her charisma and crediblity is definitely something that cannot be compared with anyone else..... she makes the subject so easy to be learned.... no matter what, my all my senses were open to grab the knowledge that she had to share, and i am pretty sure that i learned quite a lot today... we finished chapter 8: salts.

but of the many things that she had to say, 1 thing gotten to me, it is about the action of heat towards the salt..... seriously.... i gave a little thought to it and concluded that relationships should be like pottassium and sodium. this is because the pottassium and sodium form strong bonds, whereby even when it is heated, it cannot be broken down that easily.... This fact, which may seem pretty much like nothing at all left a big impact on me... yess... it made me think in such way that reationships should be tied with strong bonds... and of course, when it comes to relationship, what could be more important than love?

love is just too important to be taken easy of..... when there are a lot of love and passion, for sure the bond of relationship will be strong, that if people of the 3rd party try to heat you'll up, you're relationship maintains and grows even stronger, just like sodium and pottasium....!!! can't be broken down.... wow..... chemistry is fun huh???? it makes you think out of the box... well it made me think that way!!!

so today's experience with the girls, and the chemistry lesson has made me realize that our friendship will stay and last forever... and even if others try to break us up, my friendship with the girls will not drain up but it'll grow even stronger,

the only thing that i can do is to plant the seed of trust, and water it with love, shine it with care, and nurture it with kindness..... and i believe that our friendship tree will grow as tall as ever....

i thank god for blessing me with amazing friends..... i love em all so much....

i am sure that we will all be close in our hearts though we live miles and stones away...

thank you'll for always being there for me and showing me love and compassion when i truly needed them....

As soon as the chemistry class ended, i rushed downstairs to go back home..... mum was waiting for me downstairs, and as usual she flashed er loving smile as i got into the car.... i just love it when she smiles at me, it makes me feel happy!

but as i told you i was a little tired and blur at the same time.... so i just got into the car and watched my mum drove away from the tuition area..... gawddd-damn-it!!! it was sooo bloody jammed as construction works to improve the roads are goin on..... but yet the sky was just too beautiful for me to care about anything else at that time. I wasn't bothered about the traffic jam.. nevertheless, the irritating honking sound and slow-moving traffic was immatter to me as it thought that it'll be such a waste of time if i don't enjoy the only alone times that i had,( though mum was beside, she was too irritated to say a word.. good for me...!!!)

it almost felt like i was in heaven, te sky was transparent to my eyes, i could see the outer space (or was it just my imagination...?) and most importantly i sensed the peace and tranquility as the pink and lavender sunset skimmed its gentle light off the sky....... no words to describe the sorta feeling that i had when i gazed upon the sky... i was simply in peace, i did not say much, i felt high ^.^

i will always treasure that very moment that i experienced today.... the beauty of nature is priceless..... and what a pity that us, humans, dont enjoy and take good care of them.... humans should learn how to be humans and give the respect that mother earth deserve..... what us humans don't realize is that, mother earth is far too smart than any of us, she knows when to give up!!! remember the dinosaur story?? i believe that that deadly species faced extinction because mother earth couldn't take the sight of fights, blood, and despair.... back then, we were just rodents, too afraid to step out, and thn started a wole new era, with us being the part of mothers earth's rebirth most importat element given the power to rule, protect and preserve!

BUT, the million dollar question is that,

ARE WE DOING WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO??

WHAT ARE WE DOING TO SAVE MOTHER EARTH?

we're just too selfish, that we dont care about anything but money and power,

WHERE IS THE LOVE?????

-null mi$$tre$$-

MY TITTLE

2008-10-05T03:14:00.000-07:00

Earlier i named my blogspot as the chessmate.... hmmmph. well i wondered what was the reason, just like everyone else... but honestly it was the very first thing to pop up when i created my spot in the blogging universe.... god knows why.... but i guess now that i have thought about it, i guess it was because i wanted the tittle to reflect my intellectual ability... hahahax... yeah... chess mate, sounds intellectual aite? but wait, there's more to it..... chess mate- "i want to share my thoughts with all of you out there, and i want you'll to be my mates, well you know... to read it!

but now i have changed it to fly high...... fly high best reflects myself as a whole organism who have the spirit to fly high, to catch my dreams and to sail through the ocean of life which is filled with unbearable challenges and quests...... it shows that i will always have the spirit to fly high and to hold tight to my dreams under my wings for it will be the fuel for me to shoot up even higher...... mind over matter!!! yeshhhh...... i am what i think, i am me...... no one can change me for anything........ and yeah this sudden change in my mind is definitely due to the tough times that i have been facing with in my life...... yes the brainwrappers that i myself have sticked my brains with...... seriously... i really did not want to share this with anyone but since today is the last day of the raya holidays and also because tommorow when i step into my skewl i want to be a whole new person, so i have to share this problem i have been facing in my life.... i feel that if i share it with others then, perhaps i can reduce the burden that, currently i have suffering with..... ok.... i have been a whole different person lately as in before the holidays, and it has been really tough.. seriously, i did not notice this till my besties started asking me about it.... i have been isolating myself and not talking to them, almost ignoring all my buddies.... i guess i was drowning in my sacred tears of unjoyful problems..... till this minute i am still lost and havent a clue what as the reason of such behaviour... really.... well i guess itz the inferiority complex..... yesss that piece of bloody scavenger!!!!! inferiority complex is seriously bad wey..... it makes you feel so small!!!! so alone!! and soo lost.....!!!!! and the worst part is that you don't even realize it slimmin you.... yes i was this (..) close to have been completely slimmed, drowned into the vessels of the pathetic beast.... yesss..... i seriously hope that i can snap out of it! really... sometimes i feel very unhappy with myself and eventually i witnessed myself ebing chewed up by the beast!

yessss mind over matter.... and sometimes i watered that beast with my tears, i believe i have!!! how cud have i been so blind to have not noticed that??? i needed someone to snap me out of the sea of tears.... but now all i can do is that step out of it or at least pretend to and buckle up as itz going to be a bumpy ride..... oh my gawddd..... this holidays has seriously opened up my eyes.... i missed my friends so much that now i realize that how muchthey have been missing me.... yessss.... i am not sure whether or not i am fully recovered out of it, but at least that's what i hope.... and yes i am glad that i had the courage to pen this down or in this case blog it out..... i am now relieved , all thnx to this raya festival.... i love the concept of this festival... itz all about forgiving and forgetting... i guess i have used this opportunity to ask for forgiveness to all of em that i truly love.... including my teachers.... ( n yeah they forgave me) whoooooo.... u can't tell how thankful i am at the moment..... it feels like i'm an addict who has gone to rehabilitation centre.... hahaha.... which is good in a way.... and all because of love.... havent i told you before that love makes everything possible???

and when i say everything, i MEAN everything! lol...

hahahahaax.... ooppsss!!!

so yeah, i know that i sound like a freak or something, but imagine what the world would be without love????

oooohhhh-em-giiiiiiii...... nope!!! better not i guess...... so basically this issue was compressed and blasted off when i watched gandhi ji on friday.... damn i started to realize the power of love and the dynamics of patience...... wow...... it has gotten me..... i cried when i watched the movie.... haizz.... and yeah then i started to wonder about my life, and what i was becoming, a monster!!!

(a tiny one.. hahax..)

lol..... i agree love conquers all..... we're doomed without it...... and i am glad that i am overloaded with it... a friend told me that i am rich with love and i have every goddamn rights to have an excellent future and that i am smart and beautiful the way i am already....... so yeahhh am thankful to god ( again..!!!) for blessing me with a good life, loving parents, and amazing peeps... yeshhhhh....

i love me... i love myself.... and hell i'm not gonna let others tease me for the way i am....

i might be fat, have no nose, short and clumsy at times, but who cares???

i love everything about me and wouldnt wanna change me 1 bit..... and nope this is not nacicism ok, itz self-love and self-respect.. because lately, i have been lacking them..... and yess i want them back.... i want my self-confidence to go up,up,up,up,up and uppp!!!! i wanna fly high.... i wanna be one of those peopple to make the sky so beautiful to gaze upon!!!! hahahax.....

and if you're reading this, i wanna tell you something,

nobody is perfect, and you don't have to be perfect to be happy... so don't try to hard to be perfect because you'll end up losing your life!!

and owh yeah..... i wanna appologize to every single people out there if i have been bad and hope that you'll forgive me... after all life is all about forgiving and forgetting right?

hahaha...

and yah to this special person "R"

i know that i have been a big trouble, and have hurt ur feelings.... but hey sorry for the silly things aite? i don't even know whether or not you'll be reading this but i just had to say... haizz.... what a huge relief??

okkkaaayyyy... who's up for sum monkey business now????

mwaahhhxxx... luv you guys...

- null mi$$tre$$-

LiFe

2008-10-05T01:46:00.000-07:00

ALLRIGHT THIS IS MY 2ND POST AND YEAH I HAVE OFFICIALLY ABANDONED MY BLOGSPOT FOR A VERY LONG PERIOD I GUESS...... SO YEAH, I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO SCREAM OUT TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD...... BUT FIRST OF ALL NO MORE PROMISES! YEAH, I GUESS I PROMISSED TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD UPDATE MY BLOG EVERY NOW AND THEN, BUT LOOKS LIKE I'VE FAILLED TO DO SO. SINCE TODAY IS THE ONLY DAY I HAVE TO WASTE, SO I DECIDED TO PEN DOWN ALL THE THINGS THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING IN MY LIFE... YESHHHH... OK, NOW I AM SORTA CONFUSED BECAUSE I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TO START.... HMPPHHH SO LET ME THINK... AHHMMM YEAH.. FIRSTLY REGARDING MY FIRTST POST, I TOLD YOU'LL ABOUT THE CRAZY IDEAS THAT I AM COMING UP WITH AITE?

SO YEAH, I SORTA FIGURED OUT ONE LETTER OF THE HUNDRED-MILLION PIECE PUZZLE, WHOOOOHOOOO... ALL THANKS TO MR MOAY( MY PHYSICS TUTOR).. HE'S AN AWESOME TEACHER BTW... WINKS*. YEA AND NOW COMING BACK TO THE STORY, AS WE WERE LEARNING THE TEORY OF VAPOURISATION...... TOOOOOT... AND IDEA, IT SLIPPED RIGHT FROM MY LEFT PART OF THE BRAIN TO THE OTHER SIDE, AND I GUESS ALL THE WHILE HE WAS TEACHING ABOUT "THE PHYSICS THEORY", ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS " MY HUMANS CAN VAPOURISE THEORY".... GAWWDDD...... THEN THE IDEA WAS CHANNELLED INTO THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY BRAIN TO BE ANALISED.... SERIOUSLY,( I KNOW THAT IT IS SO FRIGGIN' FUNNY BUT YET IT IS THE TRUTH) I THOUGHT THAT IF ONLY I COULD CONNECT MY THEORY TO THE OTHER SANE ONE, PERHAPS I COULD ACTUALLY PUT AN END TO ALL THIS MYSTERIOUS IDEAS THAT MY BRAIN GENERATES. BUT GUESS WHAT?

I AM JUST ANOTHER 16-YEAR-OLD-BRATT, WHAT CAN I POSSIBLY FIGURE OUT?? AND OWN MY OWN?? (YOU MUST BE CRAZY IF YOU ACTUALLY THOUGHT I DID, HAHAA..) SO YEAH, I WAITED, WAITED,WAITED, AND WAITED TILL MR MOAY SAID THANK YOU..... AHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........ THIS IS THE TIME, THIS IS MY OPPORTUNITY TO ACTUALLY CLEAR MY DOUBTS, I THOUGHT( OR WAS IT..???) WELL, SO OUT OF THE ORDINARY, I SAT A LITTLE LONGER AS EVERYONE RUSHED DOWN THE STAIRS TO GO BACK HOME, A BUNCH OF HULLIGANS, SERIOUSLY!!!! YESSHHHH,.... NOW!!!!! MY TIME!!! BUT OH NOOOOOO....... MY BESTIE, BINDHU, WOKE UP AND ASKED ME WHY AM I STILL WAITING. I SMILLED AND TOLD HER THAT I WANT TO ASK MR MOAY A FEW QUESTIONS..... AND WOOOFFF SHE KNEW FROM MY SMILE THAT IT WAS ABOUT THE "MY HCV THEORY".... OH YEAH, GUESS WHAT SHE SAID,........ HAHAHA... AS USUAL, SHE ASKED ME WHETHER I SERIOUSLY WANTED TO RISK MY PRIDE AND ACTUALLY QUESTION MR MOAY ABOUT MY OWN SO CALLED WEIRD THEORY......BUT I HAD TO, I HAD NO OTHER CHOICE, I NEEDED TOAT LEAST PUT A FOOT AHEAD AND TRY TO END THIS QUESTIONS THAT MY BRAIN SERVES ME WITH, SO YEAH, I FLASHED MY "OH-SO-SMART SMILE" AND STOOD AND WENT IN FRONT( NOT THAT I WAS SITTING AT THE BACK THE CLASS.. AHEMM...) YEAH...

MR MOAY: YES, SWEET GIRL.

SILLY ME: HELLO SIR, I LEARNT QUITE A LOT TODAY, THANK YOU FOR THE LESSON.

MR MOAY : UR WELCOME. SO HAVE YOU ANY QUESTIONS?

SILLY ME : EHMMMM... YESHH SIR. I HAVE A QUESTION.. DO YOU THINK THAT OBJECT CAN VAPOURISE? AHHMMM I MEAN BIG, HUGE OBJECTS... ERR..

MM : WELL, .......( YEAH HE STARTED EXPLAINING WHAT HE ALREADY THOUGHT EARLIER)

ME: AHHMMMM YES SIR, BUT WHAT ABOUT US, HUMANS, CAN WE VAPOURISE?

MR M : WELL, YES BUT DEPENDS ON.......... (ERRR.... ) THE SPECIAL THEORY OF RELATIVITY. HOW DID YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS?

ME :...... ERRR..

WHHHOOOOOOOSHHHHHHH, THE FORM 5 STUDENTS STARTED COMING INTO THE CLASS........ HOLYY SHIT!!!!! I WOULDN'T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO KNOW ABOUT THIS ( AND YEAH I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I AM TELLING TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW....) BUT YEAH THEN I SAID : WELL, I JUST WOKE UP ONE FINE DAY AND THIS IDEA CAME TO ME..... THEN I FLASHED ONE OF MY HEY-LOOK-AT-MY-SMARTNESS- SMILE AND THANKED HIM...... THE NEXT THING I KNEW WAS, MY BLACK XTUSSY BAG ( IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT.. WINKS*) AND WAS RUSHING DOWN THE STAIRS, BINDHU WAS WAITING FOR ME BEHIND THE DOOR... HAHA...... OK.... SO THE FIRST CLUE : "THE SPECIAL THEORY OF RELATIVITY".

BUT I KNEW DEEP INSIDE THAT IT'S A PAINFUL PROCESS.... I MEAN IMAGINE IF HUMANS CAN VAPOURISE? WHAT WILL HAPPEN?HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT? HAHAHAX IT'LL BE WEIRD AND FUNNY AT THE SAME TIME.. HAHAHA...... BUT IF ONLY OUR MOLECULAR STRUCTURE COULD BE CHANGED, ( NO IDEA HOW THAT COULD BE DONE) I ASSURE YOU THAT TIME TRAVEL AND SPACE TRAVEL WILL BE A PIECE OF CAKE OR AT LEAST POSSIBLE!! HAHAX... YESHHH...... SO I HOPE THAT I WILL BE ONE OF THE FIRST MANKIND TO TRAVEL THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE AND GO BACK IN TIME AND PERHAPS CHANGE THE WORLD A LIL BIT, HERE AND THERE....

WOULDN'T THAT BE AMAZING?

WHAT IF THE WORLD CAN BE CHANGED?

WHAT IF THERE WASN'T ANY WORLD WARS?

WHAT IF I COULD MEET GHANDI JI?

WHAT WOULD I BE ABLE TO LEARN FROM HIM?

WHAT IF I COULD CHANGE THE THE WORD POWER TO LOVE?

WHAT IF I COULD CHANGE THE WORLD FOR THE BETTER?

THESE THINGS HAVE BEEN HAUNTING ME..... YESHHHHH.... I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT IT.... I WISH I COULD SOLVE ALL THIS MYSTERIES.......

SO, HERE I PRAY:

DEAR GOD,

PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO FOLLOW MY DREAMS

PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO TRUST IN MY BELIEFS

PLEASE SHOW ME THE WAY TO GUIDE MY OWN SOUL TO YOU

PLEASE GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO TEST MY IDEAS

PLEASE GIVE ME THE COURAGE TO MEET THE FAILURES

PLEASE GIVE ME TO HAVE HOPE IN MY FUTURE

PLEASE SHOW ME HOW TO LOVE AND FORGET TO HATE OTHERS

PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW TO FORGIVE AND FORGET

PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO QUESTION MYSELF

PLEASE SHOW ME THE ROOM FOR SELF-IMPROVEMENT

PLEASE GIVE ME CHANCE TO WIDEN MY HORIZON AND EXPAND MY KNOWLEDGE

PLEASE GIVE ME THE POWER TO BREAK FREE FROM THE METAL CHAINS THAT THE CULTURE AND THE SOCIETY HAVE TIED ME WITH

PLEASE LET ME GUIDE OTHERS TO LOVE OTHERS

PLEASE GIVE ME THE DYNAMICS TO FORGET ABOUT MY WORRIES AND START PLANNING MY FUTURE

PLEASE SHOW ME HOW TO LET THINGS TO FALL INTO ITS PLACE AND NOT TO BE TO WORRIED ABOUT IT

PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO EMPHATISE WITH OTHERS

PLEASE GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO HELP MYSELF AND OTHERS

PLEASE SHOW ME THE LIGHT AND LET ME BE THE GIFT OF VISION TO OTHERS

LET ME BELIEF AND HAVE TRUST IN MY ABILITY

LET ME HAVE THE CREATIVITY TO MOULD MYSELF FOR THE BETTER....

AND THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME.......

THE WORLD CAN BE A BETTER PLACE IF ALL OF US LEARN HOW TO RESPECT, LOVE AND THANK!!!!!!

temptations

2008-08-13T00:43:00.000-07:00

alright, this is my first time blogging and yea m too excited that i dunno wat to say! haha.
i solemnly cross my heart to update this blog as often as possible... or at least i hope to! i
so, this year started really well...... or at least that's what i hoped!
i have been so busy (seriously) that i haven't a clue what i'm up 2 at the moment!
it's like i'm busy all the time, but nothing seems to be done, and i seriously wonder why is that so!! Ok so i feel the temptation within myself to excell in everything that i do, but the thing is am i giving my very best, or am i just pretending to give my best in all that i do?
the truth is that i don't really know!
The thing is, i think too much nowadays that i keep on thinking about more and more illogical stuff. Is that even good??????!!!!!! the answer is nooooooo, according to my friends. they say that m crazy, and yeah, now that i'm coming up with more totally illogical ideas, it's a series of "human can vapourise theory". Can you even believe that i came up with that crap?
i mean, ohhhh, m all "___" up!!!!! seriously, and the best part is that i keep on arguing with my buddies that itz rational and possible!!!
i still do, yessssssss... i do... i belief that it's possible.... yeahhhhhh....... i just have no idea how, but yeah, it's possible! i know it! alright when i started writing i had no idea what i want to deliver through this post, but yeahhh i still haven't figured that out yet!!
well basically i guess i created an account in blogspot to actually tell the whole world how crazy can a 16 year old malaysian can be!! yeah, i have a bunch of friends who are as crazy as i am! buzzzzzzzzz..... i think i got to stop here.. so thatz it 4 now... i know that i crapped throughout the blog but then again it's me, that's what blogging is all about isnt it?
so i'll update it as often as possible.... so yeah, it's 14th of august, and this is my 1st post! temptations!

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